Excerpts from my prayer journal

It’s not too often that I think about making my private thoughts and prayers public for others to see. But yesterday, that’s exactly what happened. But it was other people who posted about them — not in an invasive, violating way. Let me explain. 

If you haven’t already read in the blogosphere about the IF Gathering. I highly recommend it. Last night after the kids were in bed (or so I thought), I opened my Facebook page to see everybody and their mother posting about this  IF Gathering. “What the What?” I thought, so I read about it. 

The vision statement was clearly, precisely and carefully explained and freakishly resembles excerpts from my prayer journal. 

We exist to gather, equip
and unleash the next generation
of women to live out their purpose.

Ten years ago, I was the youngest member of the women’s ministry at our church in San Diego and I clearly remember sitting in a Wednesday morning Bible Study and praying that God would give me a life verse. You know, a little nugget that stood out and highlighted the calling God has for me. Clear as day… I remember Him speaking Psalm 51:13 to me. It says “Then I will teach transgressors your ways, and sinners will return to you.
“WHOA!! What? How is this going to happen? I’m so young, so ill-equipped and not to mention, I have a serious inferiority complex with other women, always thinking that others are much more qualified than me, to do anything.” These were my thoughts as I sat in the pew of the presbyterian church surrounded by mature women singing with every fiber of their being “HOW GREAT THOU ART”. 
Ok Lord… You lead, I’ll follow.

So I began to study, pray, process, and think. What would it be like if women of our generation lived out our callings? I’m a firm believer that the Creator of the Universe has called each one of us to a relationship with Him and it is His Grace and Love that enables us to accept His invitation. Sure God keeps the world spinning on just the right axis and keeps the stars in place, but He is equally concerned about every detail of our lives. He loves us just the way we are, but refuses to leave us that way. He is calling each of us to a personal, intimate relationship with Him. And when we live out of that abundance, we are filled with His Holy Spirit and empowered to use the gifts, talents, and abilities to point others to Him. This isn’t for our glory- but for HIS!

What if I chose to live out my calling not because I was receiving affirmation, or accolades, or applause, but I was living out my calling because of obedience. Obedience rooted in my allegiance to Him! My King, My Father, My Friend. 

I began to journal. To write out my pleas before the Lord and ask Him to open doors, equip the saints and draw the women of this generation to Himself. Not to a cause, or a conference, or a church. But to Him. I know He can use the aforementioned avenues, but in my opinion, we are all too often comfortable with cheering on programs rather than following our Creator. Don’t get me wrong… I think every believer should be a part of a local congregation (Hebrews 10:25) and putting our faith into action (James 1:22-23). 

But is it possible that we have relied too heavily on other Christian leaders to tell us step by step what to do and we’ve forgotten what the voice of God sounds like?

I write this today as one begger showing other beggers where I’ve found food. I have in no way “arrived. I am 100% committed to this journey and invite you to join me. Over the past few years, the Lord has graciously opened many doors and given me the courage and vision to walk through them. I am thrilled to pieces every time I get to have face-to-face time with a sister and hear what God is doing in her life. Recently I started taking classes at Western Seminary in an attempt to learn from those who have gone before me. Bless the older generation! We stand on your shoulders. Thank you for your example!!

I invite you to pray. Pray for the women of this generation. Pray for the women of your church. And pray that the One who knit you together in your mother’s womb would reveal Himself to you today. Draw near to Him and He will draw near to you. And when you read about things like the IF Gathering, you’ll be reminded that our God is crazy about unifying His Daughters.



P.S. if you live in northern California and are interested in traveling to Austin, TX in Feb, 2014 with me… leave a comment or send me an e-mail rebeccahoehne@yahoo.com


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