Happy July everybody!!
This isn’t the stereotypical “where has the time gone” post. I know exactly where the time has gone. Midnight feedings, dirty blowout world war 3 type diapers, summer camps, grocery shopping, late night swimming… it’s how we roll folks!
But these last few days I’ve taken part in something really cool and I wanted to share it with my blog peeps! Both of you. (Just kidding)
A woman I respect and admire A TON is Anne Graham Lotz. She is the daughter of Billy Graham and is also being used in huge ways for God’s kingdom. I saw her in San Diego a few years ago at the Sports Arena for the “Give me Jesus” conference with Fernando Ortega. hashtag AWESOME!
Anyways… My mom forwarded me http://www.annegrahamlotz.com/events/urgent-call-to-prayer/ and it was hosted by our buddy Anne (as in Anne Graham Lotz). I looked it over and immediately felt the weight to what I was called to do.
Prayer is powerful y’all! (part of my family lives in Texas, I’ve adopted their right to use y’all!)
Yesterday I completed day 7 of this “call to prayer” which included a section about repentance. I was nailed to the wall with conviction. Here’s what it said:
To aid in your repentance, read the following check-list three times all the way through. In the third reading, repent of the sin that God brings to your attention.
Ingratitude: Neglecting to thank God for an answered prayer or a blessing. I repent.
Neglect of Bible reading: Keeping the Bible closed, or reading it without focus. I repent.
Unbelief: Doubting who God is and what God has said. I repent.
Prayerlessness: Spiritually chattering, daydreaming, and fantasizing instead of fervently praying. I repent.
Unconcern for the lost: Leaving evangelism to the “professionals.” I repent.
Hypocrisy: Pretending to be more spiritual than I am, or anything I am not. I repent.
Pride: Impressed with my own reputation and accomplishments; offended and resentful when someone else receives more attention. I repent.
Envy: Jealousy of those more gifted and fruitful and recognizable than I am. I repent.
Critical spirit: Finding fault with someone because he or she doesn’t measure up to my standards. I repent.
Slander: Telling the truth about someone, with the intention of causing others to think less of him or her. I repent.
Lying: Making a statement, exaggerating, or inferring something that is contrary to the unvarnished truth. I repent.
Cheating: Not doing to others what I expect or demand them to do for me. I repent.
Robbing God: Exercising my gifts or spending my time, money or energy on things that have a selfish goal, without asking God first. I repent.
Fear: For being so afraid of what others think and say that I remain silent, hiding the light of Your Gospel under the basket of intimidation. I repent.
My jaw dropped. My heart took a break and I searched frantically for the “ALL OF THE ABOVE” option.
I tried to defend myself and look for someone to blame. #fail
I remembered the verse… “His Kindness leads us to repentance” and I fell to my knees to confess these sins. I faintly remembered praying earlier that morning.. “Lord please search my heart and see if there be any wicked way in me.” I didn’t think HE really heard me or that HE would answer.
I was wrong!
God loves you and I so much and He knows that our sin hinders us from intimacy with Him. In fact in the book of Matthew… He says “Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God.” I want to see God! I had some repenting to do!
Thank You Lord for your faithfulness to forgive my sins. You have already paid the price for my sin and I am thankful that I can walk in FREEDOM because of YOU!